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Sunday, August 31, 2008

Spinning A Yarn

I had been figuring out what to do for the remaining of this year. After all. I have no classes on, and no dates. My baking and cooking classes have also come to a halt. The only thing left is music, but that too is going along pretty smoothly. So I thought of taking up something to kill time, instead of lounging around with nothing else to do.

So I hit upon an idea - knitting. This came about when I was trying to figure out what to pack for the upcoming trip in a couple of months. Somehow I came across a knitted (or is it crocheted) top which fits the occasion pretty well. It is an old top, made for me by my mum a long time ago, but I have not worn it much as it is madness to wear something like that in tropical weather.

While examining the top, I realised it would be good if I can make some of my own clothes instead. After all, anytime I feel creative, I can always make my own clothes according to how I like it to be, then I do not need to keep buying. All it needs is yarn and needles, and some skill.

Thus I have been looking around and researching on where I can get the best yarn, as well as a guide to knit. I am probably going to start off with a scarf, as I believe that will be the easiest. Perhaps it can be a Christmas gift if I can make it on time. Hopefully I will be able to find somewhere to go for lessons too, then it will be much easier to make something!
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Thursday, August 28, 2008

Hoping For More Decent Guys

A few weeks back, a guy friend asked if I would like to go to a beach resort island with him. His company has a resort there where he can go play golf. I was rather apprehensive at first, because after the bad experiences I had whenever guys asked me to go overseas with them, I thought to be more wary.

From what I have encountered so far, guys who asked me to go overseas with them were all thinking of getting fresh or getting laid. Which is why I vehemently refused to go overseas with any guy, unless he is someone I know very well and can be trusted. Anyway, I thought I was going to Lijiang, so I told him I could not make it.

Apparently, my Lijiang trip has been postponed, and since I thought of going down to the same beach resort to check out my company’s properties anyway, I agreed to go along. Besides, he had never tried anything funny towards me and always treated me with respect, so I figured I could trust him.

In the end, he told me there are no more rooms available. From the answer, I am all the more convinced he is someone trustworthy indeed! So out of curiosity, I asked him, what about the room he is staying in? He said it is only one room, do I seriously think he will ask me to share a room with him?

I cannot help smiling to myself when I heard that! If it is some of the other guys I know, they will think I am crazy if I ask for a separate room! At least there is still hope, that there are still decent guys around who will not take advantage of whatever girls they meet! Hopefully I meet more guys like this, instead of the other types!

Odd Job Labourer?

Nowadays I seriously wonder what I am doing at work. Granted this happened last year, I did all the boxing, scanning, categorizing, sorting, packing while the office was about to be renovated. But last year my remuneration was lesser. And there were only three of us in the team. Even then, I had the former office Administrative Assistant to help me out.

This year, I got a pay raise. And there are now four of us in the team, so I am no longer the lowest ranking of the department. My portfolio is now split between my colleague and I – she will handle the matters of just one country whereas I am handling matters of all other countries, plus financing, taxation, property, billings and banking issues.

So why am I still the only one boxing, packing, categorizing in order to move to the next building in a month’s time? Luckily this year we have an external vendor to scan the documents for us (not that many left unscanned anyway, only the really old ones). And we are using the services of a document management company to archive the old documents (again, nobody told me about that until yesterday, and I had to hear it from my counsel herself!).

Finally they realize we are running out of space! They should have thought of this long time ago! So last Friday, I have packed a total of fifteen boxes to be put in the safe, twenty boxes to be archived, and five boxes to be scanned. Yesterday, I discovered more old documents. Technically those did not belong to us; rather they belonged to some other departments. But because those are original documents and handled by different people in the past, everything was pushed to me (as again)!

More boxing and packing! The thing is, why am I still the only one doing that? Someone else can do this with just a fraction of my pay! This is not in my job scope, neither is it required of me. I am not saying I am above menial tasks, but still, I am hired for more intelligent kinds of job, not a mere labourer. And I definitely have more things to do than a certain colleague of mine whose country’s matters are now at a low peak, so all she does is to surf the net and chat the whole day!

So why did she not even lift a finger to help out? Or is it people just take for granted that since I have done the “dirty job”, so I should do it? Not only that, people do not seem to have eyes to see! After I did some database management, all my documents are stored in the shared network folder. Which means anyone can access and extract what they need. The documents are stored according to country, project, name, date, parties. I even did a list of all the documents and contracts under my charge, about more than a thousand of them!

So why is it each time when someone needed a certain document, they just come to me and expect me to supply them the correct thing immediately? Honestly, all they need is just a little search and they can find what they are looking for! Furthermore, due to the turnover of some departments, I ended up having to clean up the mess as the person who left screwed up on two major property deals. What does that make me now? A lawyer-administrator-sales manager-accountant-translator-labourer and what not in one?

I am very tempted to just take off for a month, and see how others are going to survive without me! Already when I am not in the office, I get calls from people asking about this and that! Is it any wonder why I look so stress all the time? And people blame me for looking so glum? I know I wear my emotions on my face, because I do not like to pretend like others, to be nice and then be nasty after that.

I am not that kind of person, so I do not go around wearing a plastic smile on my face when I do not feel like smiling. So if I am to resign now, I am sure many people here will be glad to be rid of me! So why should I give them the satisfaction? On the other hand, if I can get a more intelligent job with much better prospects and no manual labour involved, perhaps I will just jump. To hell with people who do not appreciate me!

Preparing For Maori Land

My leave is approved! We will be away from the twenty-fourth October to ninth November, so minus away weekends and the Deepavali holiday, I only need to take ten days off! Seventeen days, excluding two days on the plane, there will be fifteen days to tour North and South Islands! Heavenly! :-)

We have signed on a package that includes a car rental and accommodation at youth hostels. In other words, we are sort of roughing it a little. How fun! That is the beauty of travel - to experience the good and the bad. Seeing another country and another culture more than make up for whatever ruggedness that will come. We will by flying Qantas! Good, at least it is an airline I like! It will take us about ten hours to get to Auckland, and probably twelve hours or so to come back from Christchurch.

One thing about travelling is that I can never know what to pack. Okay, if I am going to temperate countries like Europe or Japan where they have relatively mild summers and cold winters, at least I still have an idea what to bring along. But in sub-tropical / sub-temperate climates like Australia and New Zealand, it is hard to predict how the weather will be like. My experience in Australia tells me the temperature can jump very fast, ie it can be twenty degrees one day and suddenly thirty plus degrees the next day!

I found out that the temperature in New Zealand around that period of time will be around five to nineteen degrees, since it will be late Spring. Which means long-sleeve T-shirts, sweaters, track pants and jeans. Anything too light will be too cold, and anything too heavy will be too warm. Besides, we will be on the road most of the time, so it is not a good idea to bring too many things along. South Island will be colder though, so I have to plan in such a way that the "heavier" clothing will be worn when we are there.

Anyway, we have come up with the final itinerary (although plans never really go by exactly, there will always be changes when the time comes). We are having a rather comprehensive tour of both islands, starting from Auckland, then down to Waitomo, Rotorua, Taupo, Palmerston North and Wellington, where we will board a ferry to South Island to Picton, then down to Hanmer Springs, Fairlie, Dunedin, go west and up to Te Anau, Queenstown, Arrowtown, west and up to Franz Josef Glacier, up to Hotikita, east via Arthur's Pass and finally east to Christchurch.

The itinerary is as follows :

North Island

24/10 - Arrive in Auckland.

Accommodation : Auckland Youth Hostel

25/10 - Auckland - Waitomo
Auckland Sky Tower, Kelly Tarlton's Antarctic Encounter, Parnell Village (Ewelme Cottage), lunch at Iguacu Restaurant & Bar

Accommodation : Waitomo Caves Kiwi Paka Youth Hostel

26/10 - Waitomo - Rotorua
Waitomo Glow Worm Caves, Te Puia Maori Village / Whakarewarewa Geothermal Valley (geyser)
Rotorua : Skyline Skyride and Luge, dinner at Fat Dog Cafe

Accommodation : Rotorua Kiwi Paka Youth Hostel

27/10 - Rotorua - Taupo
Rotorua Agrodome Sheep Show
Taupo : Huka Prawn Farm, lunch, Volcanic Activity Centre, "Craters Of The Moon", Huka Falls, dinner

Accommodation : Taupo Youth Hostel

28/10 - Taupo - Palmerston North - Wellington
Palmerston North : lunch at Barista, Rose Garden
Wellington : Te Papa Tongarewa Museum, City tour : historic government building, "Beehive" / Parliament House, Cable Car, dinner at Kai (Maori Hangi dinner)

Accommodation : Wellington Youth Hostel

29/10 - Wellington - Picton
Wellington half-day Lord of the Rings tour (YES!!), Katherine Mansfield birthplace (YES AGAIN!!)
Cross-island Ferry to Picton

South Island

30/10 - Picton - Hanmer Springs
Thrillseeker's Bungy / Jetboat (Finally can go bungy-jumping!)
Hanmer Springs Thermal Reserve

Accommodation : Hanmer Springs Youth Hostel

31/10 - Hanmer Springs - Fairlie
Fairlie Farmstay

Accommodation : Farmstay

1/11 - Fairlie - Moeraki - Dunedin (Otago)
Moeraki Ancient Boulders (Coastal Sanctuary)
Dunedin City : Baldwin Street, Railway Station (Gingerbread House), Elm Wildlife Tour

2/11 - Dunedin - Gore - Te Anau
Dunedin Cadbury World (YES YES YES!!!!), Otago Museum / Otago University
Gore (tea break)

Accommodation : Te Anau Youth Hostel

3/11 - Te Anau - Milford Sound - Queenstown
Milford Sound : Redboats Cruise / Underwater Observation

Accommodation : Queenstown Youth Hostel

4/11 - Queenstown
Kawarau Bungy Centre, Williams Cottage (lunch at Vesta), Kiwi Birdlife Park, Skyline Gondola

5/11 - Queenstown - Arrowtown - Franz Josef Glacier
Arrowtown : breakfast, Lake District Museum, Chinese Settlement
Queenstown : Wanaka Puzzling World
Lake Matheson (near Fox Glacier)

Accommodation : Franz Josef Glacier Youth Hostel

6/11 - Franz Josef Glacier - Hokitika
Guided Glacier Valley Walk
Hokitika : Tancred Street Jade Shops, Glass Blowing Studio

7/11 - Hokitika - Christchurch
Hokitika West Coast Historical Museum
Arthur's Pass, lunch at Wobbly Kea Cafe
Christchurch : Canterbury Museum, Gondola

8/11 - Christchurch
Mona Vale, Market and Art Centre, Christchurch Cathedral

9/11 - Home Sweet Home
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Consolidating Finances ....

I can finally empathise with those who resorted to borrowing from loan sharks. I used to think nothing is that bad, but I realise now they have probably exhausted all means and need urgent cash to tide over, which is why they had to go through this method. And banks and finance companies normally turn a blind eye when people need urgent cash. Of course, not all are for honourable intentions, like paying off loans. Most just need the cash to gamble and splurge on lottery.

Having said that, some loan sharks think they are doing a service by lending money to people who are really in need, and when banks and authorized money lenders refused to. However, when people default on payment, they, too, refuse to give them some leeway. At least the most the banks can do is to hound and harass you, charge you and then declare you a bankrupt. Loan sharks will paint your house and chase you everywhere.

But at times, circumstances happen that perhaps someone just happen to need cash in very difficult times. So can people not be a bit more compassionate? Why is it when you do not really need the cash, everyone starts loaning you without you asking, but when you really really need some quick cash to tide over, everybody turn their backs on you and still try squeezing water out of a stone?

If the person really has no money to pay, does it help matters to keep chasing for payment? How would you know the person has not tried every ways and means to source for funds? At times one really need the cash at that point in time, after that things will be smoother, but yet no one could help.

Recently I am trying to consolidate whatever finances I still have left and planning how to split accounts. So I researched on the kinds of plans banks offer. And I realize how much of a blood-sucker banks can be! When we need our money to grow and put it into a savings account, the interest is so pathetic, about 1.5% or so. Yet when someone defaults on bank loans, immediately they have to pay 24% on top of the principal amount. In other words, we are making more loss than profits!

Anyway, I was trying to see which bank is best to open another savings account. I used to have a Save-As-You-Earn account, then after maturity, I closed that and put whatever money I had into a fixed deposit. After that, due to the attractive interest rates of insurance savings and endowment plans, I closed the Fixed Deposit account and put all the money in endowment plans, plus a bit more.

It is true that one should always cultivate the habit of saving. Banks recommend at least ten percent, but for me, it used to be twenty percent, then ever since I got a raise, I try to save half. There were times when I contemplated surrendering the endowment plans and just withdraw all the cash altogether, especially when I was trying to invest. But a good thing I did not, otherwise I would lose much more.

I could have drawn out the cash and used it for investment instead of taking a bank loan, but in the end, I decided against it. So even though I lost quite badly, I still have assets in tact. Out of sight, out of mind, then I will not be able to touch it and use it. Now that I have to start building up all over again, I need to be more vigilant in my savings plan.

Thus, besides the insurance plans I already have, I plan to split my savings up further. So, whatever take home pay I have, after the deduction for insurance(s) and household allowances (which is now more since I need to pay back my mum) which can easily take up to half my pay, I plan to open another savings account and split half of whatever remaining into it. Which means one for expenditure and one for purely savings.

That means I have only a quarter of my pay to survive on from now on, to include food, transport, entertainment and miscellaneous. And it is not as if I am even earning that much in the first place! But what else can I do? I need to build up whatever I have lost in the fastest way possible. I have already spent the number of years trying to build up a comfortable sum, and lost it all in a wimp of stupidity. So now in order to build up again, I have to save more each month in order to make up for all the years down the drain.

But I will survive. I do not need to spend that much on myself. It has come to a stage where I already have whatever I needed and wanted (save for real big expenses like a house and car), so I do not really need anymore things. And since I am still single, it will be much easier to save as compared to those who are planning to start a family.

So after some calculations, I realize I can still have a relatively comfortable life. What are those things I spend on? Food and transport, a bit of entertainment here and there, enrichment courses (not too expensive ones), mobile bills (which I recently downgraded into a less expensive plan), travel, school fees. I just have to stop buying books, CDs, clothes, shoes, snacks and cosmetics. Time to be more disciplined!

Difference Between Relationship And Love

My previous post sparked off some responses and discussions from friends, nothing negative. They just felt that I have touched on something raw, and most people will not see it that way, ie most will not know the difference between just mere being in a relationship or actually being with a person, as they equate both as the same.

Actually, it took me a while to know the difference as well. I used to think how can you be in a relationship yet not really wanting to be with the person? I used to think both are the same, until I learnt a hard lesson.

The thing is, if you want to be in a relationship, you will not care who you end up with. Both meet each other, both think they can get along on a superficial level, both have fun and can communicate, so why not? Yes, why not? After all, a relationship is just to keep each other’s company and do things together right? Wrong.

A relationship is more than that. Both may enter a relationship just to keep each other company and do things together, but if you do not really love each other, then when you start to know each other’s quirks, when you see how “ugly” both can be, can you still be willing to accept each other?

Which is why lots of relationships and marriages break down. They think it is so easy to just be together and that is it. But being in a relationship is not just that. Do you want to be in a relationship just because you want company and have fun? You can do that with friends too! You need not be in a relationship just to have fun!

But if you really love and want to be with the person, then the relationship will take on a higher level. You will be there for each other despite sadness, problems. Like will you run away if the person is bankrupt or jobless? Will you be there to support the person no matter what he / she does? Will you be willing to be committed despite changes, family problems on either side, and the downside to life?

Life is never easy, I know that too well, otherwise I will not still be in trouble. The thing is, in the past, only one person had gone through bad times with me. The others would just go away if I broke down, refused to lend me a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on, left me to my own problems, and could even tell me not to be upset when I was already so upset!

If one really love and wants to be with a person, then his / her happiness matters most to you and you will never bear to see him / her upset. How can I then trust that we can go through upheavals if they are not even ready to be there for me when I am down?

I notice that those who are still nursing the wound at the aftermath of a relationship are those that are most prone to want to be in a relationship more than anything else. I can understand that as I have been through it. It is like all those years you have someone with you, all of a sudden, you are all alone. You have no one else to share things with, to talk with, to confide in, to share happy and sad times with. You yearn more than anything to be with someone.

In one’s confused state, he / she often find someone on rebound, without thinking through carefully. For instance, someone just broke up with the ex after several years. Another person comes along and shows a bit of interest, and the person will then want to be in a relationship with this person. Which is why rebound is never healthy, because you may not be fully clear of what you are doing.

You may say you want to be with the person, but at the same time treat the person as the shadow of your past, of what you would like the relationship to be, to what it used to be, and whenever things did not meet up, you would start being so frustrated. But the problem is the person is different. It is a different person from the ex. So either you accept the person for who he / she is and let live, or just do not enter into the relationship.

Yes, you may be lonely, you may yearn for company, but face it, there are so many more things in life than just being in a relationship. When you are on the verge of being bankrupt and losing your job, matters of the heart is the least of your problems. If one just wants company, one can just find someone whose company one enjoys.

I used to think it would be better being in the company of someone I love, but recently I have been lucky to have good company, girls who are fun and sassy, and guys who are reliable and humourous, generous and caring. But that does not mean I have to date them. We can just enjoy each other’s companies as friends, with no strings attached. One thing I can never understand is just because a guy and a girl go out together, others will just assume they are a couple. Honestly, can a male and female not just be friends without being involved with each other?

I guess when people have come to a certain stage, they know it is not just a mere fact of being in a relationship that counts, but being with the right person. There are many people out there who want to settle down, but they are not going to be with just anyone. No one enters a relationship so hastily, especially for those who are looking for the right person. It does not mean we have to be with anyone who is nice to us, or anyone whom we have fun with. Just keep an open mind and things will fall into place when the time is right.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Wise Words From A Fellow Man

I was talking to a friend last night, and he (recently married) was telling me actually he feels guys who are still unmarried in their thirties brought it upon themselves. I was quite shocked over that statement, so I asked him why.

He said the guys either do not treat the girl seriously (quite true actually!), or they have very unrealistic expectations, or they are not willing to be nice to the girl, or they do not know how to interact and approach the opposite gender, or they think too highly of themselves that they deem everyone else below them.

Erh… a bit harsh actually, but I do agree somewhat. I have seen guys who are like that. And there are also some guys who are so desperate for a relationship that they just grab whoever that comes along, without thinking through the consequences. There is a difference between actually being with the person or just wanting to be in a relationship.

Wanting to be with the person means taking the good and the bad and be committed no matter what happens, whereas wanting to be in a relationship means just wanting company and someone to do things with. However, they may not be able to take the bad as it comes because they may have an ideal what the perfect relationship is like, and not what the person is like, which will be rather unhealthy in the long run.

Anyway, I asked him, in that case, what about girls who are single in their thirties? He said girls who are still single in their thirties are mostly not at fault, because they meet these kind of men so nothing can be worked out.

Hmmmmm… and this is from a fellow man! If even someone of the same gender starts feeling there is a problem, then perhaps there really is a problem? And I thought I am the one being biased or discriminatory or having too high expectations!

The Price Of Publicity ....

Imagine what a bit of “publicity” does for a person! All of a sudden, people I have not spoken to in ages suddenly touched base with me again. And I mean, really in ages! I do not mean a few months or so, but years! Even then, we were never that close.

All of a sudden, people started talking to me again. It is as if they suddenly remembered my existence. I have had people who said they always wanted to touch base again, but after seeing that article, they thought better to just contact me again.

Hmmmm… how am I supposed to react to that?! That I am so pathetic I need my face to be splashed to three hundred thousand people on this island before people remember me?! In any case, that was just a one off photo touched up by experts; I sure do not look like this everyday!

Not to mention the dubious characters I have dropped, suddenly contacted me again, with - what else! - dubious intentions. Hello, read the article! They are the kinds of people I was raving about!

Because of this, I have to edit my social portal a bit. I suddenly have an influx of weird people asking me to add them in. Who in the world are they? I do not even know them! Their names do not even sound familiar, and pretty weird names as well, like Forrest (Gump?!), Crowe (Russell??) and even Alexisar (erh.. Alexander and Caesar?!).

Alright, that one day of “fame” is not a negative experience. When I went for the photo shoot, I deliberately did not bring along a change of clothes and applied only light makeup, just so the photos would not turn out well and hopefully they would not use the photos. In the end, I was asked to supply some of my own photos. Still, we had to pose and took about a hundred photos. I imagine it must be an upheaval task trying to decide which photo to display (for the other two that is)!

I am not one to be in the limelight, so when I went out yesterday, I saw people actually reading the paper, I hoped no one would recognize me. Some did though. There were some guys who sort of did a double take when I walked by and quickly grabbed the paper, and flipped it to check. There were some who happened to glance in my direction, turned back and suddenly looked in my direction again.

I must say, even though part of me kind of enjoyed the attention, majority of me felt really uncomfortable. Now I know how celebrities feel, get stared at and scrutinized wherever they go. Luckily there was no harm done. Nobody came up and pestered me or anything, so I could go my way in peace.

Never again will I do this! At least if I ever go for another media interview, it better be something more meaningful featured on the mainstream papers, and not some sensational news featured on some tabloid gossip papers! Luckily the papers here are not too bad already – imagine if we are in Hong Kong! That will be horrifying indeed!

In The "Limelight" ....

So something is not as low profile as I thought. Oh well... My messages have been coming in the whole day, from friends, acquaintances, even strangers. I guess the readership is higher than I thought. Still, I hope none of my other family members get to see it as we never read that paper. Neither do any of my closer friends as they read heavier news and current affairs.

In any case, I am not that happy over the fact that I was misquoted! I only had one relationship in university; they made it sound as if I had a few! And I did say even educated girls can be submissive once they found the right guy, but guys should not expect the girl to be submissive at first instance if they are not even at that stage yet, but somehow that was not published.

And I do not go onto Internet Relay Chats; I only tried dating websites! The only chatlines I go into are messenging programs which I use to interact with friends and acquaintances! Besides, I did not expect my full name and age to be disclosed, nor the picture to be so big!

The worst thing was that I was made to understand that would not be a cover story, but I guess that kind of thing probably created more sensation than the original cover story. Now I only hope no one in my workplace gets to see it. No wonder one can never trust journalists!
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Sunday, August 24, 2008

St James Power Station

Finally, I had a chance to go to this popular nightspot after telling myself to go there for the longest time! One of my colleagues (ex-colleague actually) from another department recently left the company so I was asked to go along for the farewell party.

So who said I have no friends in the company? It just so happens my friends are from other departments and the other building. Whereas those in the same office .... oh well, there will always be people one has no affinity with.

We went to the Boiler Room. When I first stepped in, my first impression was that whoever who thought up this concept is pretty smart indeed, to convert an old power station into a hot nightspot, consisting of a few individual rooms playing different kinds of music drawing different crowds and age ranges.

Since there were only a few of us, we huddled around a table, enjoying retro live music, drinking bourbon. I drank a glass of Johnnie Walker Black Label with some green tea, but due to the alcohol, flashing lights and loud music, I felt so high that I had to keep downing coke, water and green tea in order to dilute the alcohol in my body!

It had been so long since I last clubbed, that I was surprised I could still get into the groove and gyrate to the music. Perhaps it was because I was high, or perhaps because the music was really catchy, but I started shaking and swaying and dancing with my colleagues. I cannot believe I could still do that, especially for a non-clubber (almost!) like myself! I stayed until past midnight when I hitched a ride back from my colleague.

Needless to say, I conked out the moment my head touched my pillow, and slept so soundly. Somehow I still woke up with a slight hangover this morning. I did not even feel the after effects despite getting high on sake a month back. I really must find out what it is I can drink and what it is I cannot! Still, it had been one fun experience, and I never had such fun for a very long time!
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Durian Durian

Finally, I had a chance to try out the famous durian cafe near where I stay. Apparently the cafe has opened for about a year now, and I have not realised it until recently! Perhaps because it is the durian season (ending soon actually), so the place is only thriving this period of time.

The cafe is situated in a corner by the road side. It took the place of a converted shophouse. The walls are green with yellow and green signs to signify durians. Each time I passed by, the place would be crowded with all races - Chinese, Malays, Indian, even Caucasians!

When I went there on Friday night, we managed to find a place to sit. We started out with coconut juice, then had our pick of durians. The durians are big, more than a kilogram at least! We had three D24s, two with bitter flesh and one with a sweet flesh, and the ultimate "Mao Shan Wang", the high-class durian, with sweet flesh.

My friend parked at the road side at first, but when a police car came, everyone ran to their cars to park further into the lane in between the shophouses. I must say, despite the popularity of the place, it is rather inaccessible indeed if one has no transport!

The durians in season are really different from those from other months! The flesh is creamy and juicy, and the seeds are really big! Other times I could eat one durian, as the seeds were smaller, but that day, after just a few seeds, I was really full! I was so bloated! And my friends were equally full, all of us were about to burst that in the end, we could not finish all the durians and had to pack some seeds back!

Overall it was a good experience! What can be better to eat good fleshy durians, especially those in season, drinking coconut juice and chit chatting until daybreak? The only catch is that the durians there are more expensive than other places, but then I always believe you pay for what you get! I was so full that I could hardly sleep that night!
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Another Boxing Session!

I was so stressed and pissed on Thursday! Why can people not tell me straight instead of going through others and making it seem like I did not do my job at all? In the past when I vacated the store room, that became a permanent storage room for our documents. Now, I had been told (through other channels) that the room was going to be converted into a working room for people of other departments, so we had only the weekend to move everything out.

Thus, the whole of Friday, I ended up boxing again. Just when I thought all our documents could be placed in a storage room, I had to shift everything out again. The worst thing is that on one hand, we had to shift everything out, on the other hand, we were not given a place to put the things! I had no alternative but to shift all to the safe, but now even the safe is running out of place!

To top it off, I had to go back to the office yesterday morning to supervise in the shifting of the boxes, which ones to be scanned into the system, which ones to be archived, which are original documents and which ones to be shifted to the safe. This is not even in my job scope, I wonder why do I have to do this all on my own? It is not as if I am even the lowest ranking one, and I sure am not hired to do menial labour! The things one have to put up with!
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Thursday, August 21, 2008

Another One Bites The Dust!

I really really seem to have lots of problems lately. First, my investment failed and I am still paying off debts. Second, things on the work front are brewing up one after another. Third, I got sabotaged like that. Fourth, well, that one I have not disclosed yet.

Yes, I know on the work front I gave an honest feedback and now people are not happy with the truth, so going all out for my blood. I do not care, I am just there to do my job. If people are not happy with me they let me know and we can thrash things out! But people, being people, will rather go through third or fourth parties to convey the message, and by the time the message actually comes to me (if that ever happens), everything is distorted.

What got me really upset was that now those whom I consider my friends and whom I used to lunch with, they got influenced by the gossip somehow and started boycotting me. Where they would use to go by my desk every lunch time and signal to me, now in order to totally avoid me, they just go out by the backdoor so they would not even go by my desk!

I am not that naïve to not know what is going on! If they no longer want to hang out or whatsoever, just let me know! Why do they have to go round in circles? I have no qualms lunching alone; I have been doing that since I joined the company. At least when I lunch alone I can go where I like to eat, enjoy some time to myself, read a book while eating.

I do not see why I have to get into a clique when I cannot relate to the people in there. Neither do I see the need to butter up to anyone. As long as I do my job that is all that matters. The office is not my home, my job is not my life. Why do I have to go around pretending to be who I am not? Is that not very hypocritical?

Now the worst news is that my current boss is leaving. Initially I thought it was because of me, as I know he offended some people while trying to protect me. Luckily those top management do not get embroiled in office politics as long as work is done. He spoke to me yesterday and told me that he is moving on for better pastures, and he wants me to be careful and watch my back.

At times I feel, what is the purpose of me staying? I do not mind my job, I like the learning experience, it is a good ground for knowledge. I need the money, at this point in time. And also, why should I cave in to those people who wish for me to leave?

What is it I am not used to? It is not as if it is the first time someone backstabbed me, I had lots of that during the years in government service. It is not as if I may end up with a bad boss, I have had bosses who totally pissed me off, who showed me no respect, who treated me like a slave or maid, who expected me to clean up for them. Which is why I am still not moving, until a newer and better opportunity is to come. Meanwhile I just need to face whatever it comes. Afterall, it is not as if I am not used to problems and challenges!

Being "Sabotaged" ....

Yesterday, a reporter from one of the local papers called me for an interview for an article. The article is in light with the recent Prime Minister’s speech on the growing number of singles, so they were looking for educated, good-looking and professional women who are unattached despite going through the services of dating agencies.

Needless to say, I was shocked. The person who called told me I came highly recommended by someone who has been reading my blog, and she herself went into my blog and my social network portal to take a look, and feel I fit what she is looking for. I wonder why? I do not consider myself as someone educated or good-looking or even professional.

In other words, I was “sabotaged”. She would not disclose who gave her my contact except to say it is a guy. Now, if he has been reading my blog and knows about my social portal and has my number, he must be someone I know, although off hand I have no recollection of anyone who fits this criteria.

What pisses me off is, if someone wants to do this, can he not ask for my permission first? Yes, I know I blog a lot, I know I state my thoughts and feelings, I know I am rather open. But writing is the only avenue I have to rave and see things from another angle, and to keep myself calm in light of all the frustration lately.

I keep a blog because I just want to write, not to be thrust in any limelight whatsoever. That is why I do not disclose my URL to everyone, except a handful few. If people are to do a search and stumble upon my blog by chance then that is fine.

But to tell my story and show my face to about three hundred thousand people on this island is another matter altogether. What will people think when this kind of article comes out? That I am someone so desperate that I need to “publicise” myself? Do I really portray myself as so desperate that the person has to resort to this?

Nevertheless, I am going ahead to meet the reporter just to see what kind of questions she will ask. Besides, she has given her word that the article is not going to be negative, and that I can scan through the draft and amend and edit to my pleasure.

Since they have already shortlisted me to be featured, I thought it might be better to go down personally to control what they write, otherwise they may just take my photo and then write an article anyway, since they have already stumbled onto my photo. At least I can read what the article will be about and pull out if I really do not feel comfortable about it.

The thing is, if this person really reads my blog, then he should know the problems I have been facing lately, especially on the work front. He knows where I work, and what I work as. Have I not been explicit enough that I am facing lots of trouble at work lately?

So how can he then give my contact away at this point in time, when I need to lie low and have a low profile, and not create any other thing for people to gossip about? Does he really think he is doing me a favour by thrusting me into such a limelight? How can anyone be so shallow? Worse thing is he dares to do it yet does not dare to admit it, and refuses to have his identity disclosed. What a coward!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Bookworm Deluxe : Mars And Venus On A Date

Finally, I have finished reading this John Gray’s book, where he was talking about the five stages of dating and relationship development – Attraction, Uncertainty, Exclusivity, Intimacy, Engagement. All five stages have to be passed before the relationship can stand the test of time.

There are some important facts in the book, like how soul mates can only be determined through time and patience, and by going through the five stages, and how when the time is right, the relationship will just fall into place. In other words, it is wise to take things slow instead of rushing in.

The book mentions that most people make the mistake of jumping in too quickly, like from Stage One (Attraction) to Stage Three (Exclusivity), or worse, Stage One to Stage Four (Intimacy). The second stage (Uncertainty) is actually common and normal.

If a woman means a lot to a man, but he is unsure whether she is the one, he will often withdraw and get distant. Anyway, in his other book, men all need their own space to sort out their feelings. So by giving the man space and time to reflect, he will finally sort out his feelings and go to the next stage. In other words, be patient and wait!

However women function differently. When the dating couple have reached Stage Two (Uncertainty), the woman often panics and wonder why the man is no longer that interested in her. So she makes the mistake of starting to pursue him instead. The book says that is not recommended, as once a woman starts being more interested, the man will lose interest. Yet when the woman calls it quits and stops pursuing, the man suddenly becomes interested in her again.

Hmmm… now I know where my problem lies. In any case, it is quite true. Sometimes after the end of a relationship, the guy came back and asked to start over, but by then I had already moved on. So in Stages One and Two, sexist as that may sound, it is recommended to let the man do the pursuing.

John Gray’s analogy is that men like to please women, so it gives them no greater pleasure than to know that their date had a great time. He says if a man asks more from a woman instead of pleasing them, then they are not emotionally ready for a relationship. For instance, if he wants more intimacy than she can and is willing to offer, and he does not respect it if she says no, then he should not be looking for a solid relationship as he is clearly not prepared to be in one. Quite true actually. Only mature men are willing to go out and treat a woman well, and not the self-centredness of immature guys.

And when he withdraws, just leave him alone, with the occasional contact to find out how he is doing, or ask his advise, and spend the time with family and other friends. Women should not make the mistake of pursuing a man more than he is willing to give, as that is one sure way to kill off whatever interest he had in her!

After he has finally sorted out his feelings, he will then move on to the third stage (Exclusivity). Only at the third stage (Exclusivity), then the couple really becomes a couple. Both are committed to each other, both do things to please each other. And so on and so forth. A normal healthy relationship is only built up through time and after going through all the stages.

At the fourth stage (Intimacy), it is when the couple really knows each other, ie the bad points, the mood swings, the emotions. After all, in a relationship, one has to take the good and the bad. Only by knowing each other thoroughly can they finally move on to the last stage (Engagement).

John Gray brought up the point of soul mates. He said soul mates are not to be found instantaneously. In most cases, the couple has to go through all stages before they can determine if they are soul mates. Soul mates normally occur around the fourth stage, as only when your soul wants to be with the person, then you can talk of marriage.

His definition of a “soul” is something that is the inner core of one’s being. From infancy to adulthood, things like physical appearance, emotions, maturity, will change. However, one’s soul will always be the same, no matter how old one is. The soul is the sub-conscience, the intuition. Thus, if your soul does not feel right, then it is not right. Only when your soul feels right then it is right. So for two persons to become soul mates, both their souls have to be able to connect.

According to him, there are four kinds of chemistry – physical, mental, emotional, spiritual. Physical chemistry is simply desire and attraction. Emotional chemistry is the affection both feel for each other. Mental chemistry creates interest. Spiritual chemistry creates love. A soul mate includes all four.

In most relationships, both have physical and emotional chemistry. Some may even have mental chemistry. However, most will not have a spiritual chemistry. So the affection and interest can only take it so far, and after a while, cracks will appear. But only when we find someone that encompasses all four then everything will fall into place and we can think of spending our lives with that person.

At times, both can love each other very much (Stage Four). But that does not mean both have to marry each other, because during Stage Four, if they find that they have lots of disagreements or find each other unsuitable in any way, they just cannot progress to marriage. In other words, soul mates bring out the best in each other, and not the worst. If both bring out the worst in each other (like quarrels and arguments over trifle and petty issues), then they are not soul mates, and even if they love each other, they should not bring themselves to get married.

I can so relate to that! I believe all those who have been in relationships before that did not work out can relate to that too. I used to think why if we loved each other, he just did not want to marry me in the end? He once said that he did not feel I was his soul mate, and I was wondering why did he only realize it then?

But through the years, and other broken relationships later and after reading the book, I can totally relate to it now. Essentially, if we were quarrelling over every little thing, then how could we even sustain a solid relationship, let alone a marriage? It is not so easy like what was shown in movies – they met, they fell in love, they got married. In real life, that is often not the case. You may love someone very much, but if the person is not someone you can foresee being with, then it is no point dragging on.

The book also mentions that people approach relationships very differently. There are some who are very lucky, they met, they fell in love, and the first person they dated became their soul mate. There are some who have to date a few, several, many, people before actually finding their soul mate. And there are some who may never find their soul mate for some reason.

He also says that soul mates often are not sought out; they just appear unexpectedly. And they are not perfect. They are normal humans just like us; they have their moods, their down periods, their tempers. And they may not be the best people; just that they are the best for us. But most people go for perfection, so if they feel someone is better, they just pull out. Which is a pity, because the person may just be dating his / her soul mate but miss the chance just because he may find someone “better”.

The book also mentions emotional maturity. The more people a person dates, the more one knows what one wants, the more emotionally stable one gets. After a while, the soul mate will just appear once the person gets it all together. Important thing is to approach with an open heart and mind. The more open we are, the closer we can come to finding the “right” person, as well as knowing who is “wrong” for us. And the more mistakes we make, the closer we will be able to look for who is suitable.

That is why there are cases where after dating a few people, one realizes that the soul mate is actually someone from the past. For instance, during that time, they might love each other very much but did not feel it right to get married. So they split up and started dating others. After a few experiences and becoming more emotionally mature, they realized they were the ones for each other all along, and thus got back together. When this happened, they would then be able to go by the five stages very quickly and end up with each other.

Thus, it really depends on when the time is right. After all, true love has to withstand the test of time. It is only by going through trials that the love can survive. Perhaps destiny plays a part too? If you belong to each other, no matter how much uncertainty or separation, both will still end up together.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

A KIwi Holiday

The trip to kiwi land is confirmed! Instead of ten days, my parents have extended it to fifteen days, because they realised that ten days will not be enough to cover all the highlights especially since we are self-driving. Just as well, the longer it is, the more leisurely a pace we can go. Initially I thought I could celebrate my birthday there, but turns out we are leaving a few days after that.

My dad said I did up a very good itinerary though. Considering the research on the tour packages, highlights of the entire country and the must-see places, not to mention the inns I proposed, I believe the itinerary should be comprehensive enough. I am rather proud of myself actually!

The final itinerary will be subject to confirmation by my parents. But from what I can see, the tour is really detailed indeed! Hopefully I get to see all the places I set out!
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Fly Away ....

I was lucky to have the chance to go to the new Flyer today. All thanks to my youngest brother, who, due to his contribution at the recent National Day Parade, he was able to get a voucher for a ride at a very discounted price. And because he was not able to make it, he gave me the voucher.

So I got a day ticket at a very discounted price, with a free mooncake. What makes it even better is that because I was the only one all by myself, with those around me in tour groups, I got to ride a whole capsule all to myself!

Can things actually get any better? I could see those people in the capsules in front and behind me staring at me in envy. Utmost privacy, space and enjoyment! If only this is a good sign that my luck is finally changing for the better ....

Anyway, I managed to snap some pictures in the sky. Since I did not bring along my digicam (silly me!), these were taken with my phone camera, which turned out not too bad, even though the quality and resolutions of the pictures are of course not as sharp as a digicam! Photos uploaded via bluetooth. Technology is good indeed!

Entering the capsule (can see there was no one else except myself!)

One of the doors to the capsule (showing City Hall)

The other door (showing Marina Bay)


Yes, it was raining

Marina Waterfront area


Moving along on top


The capsule above me

View of Ritz Carlton from the sky

View of Conrad Centennial (and other buildings) from the sky

Grounds of the Flyer



Integrated Resorts under construction




In the rain ....

Flanked by Sheares Bridge

View of Sheares Bridge

Apartments by the Bay

Really an empty capsule to myself!

View of the Concourse







Floor pattern in the capsule

Ceiling pattern in the capsule

Media guide in the capsule


At the highest point of the Flyer


Marina Water Stage flanked by the Esplanade





Glimpse of the Fullerton


Cumulo Nimbus Clouds in the horizon




Going back down





Almost at gound level




Model of future Integrated Resort (at ground level)


Back to Ground Zero


Exiting the capsule

Guests had to go all the way to the second or third floor in order to take the ride in the capsule. The corridor is like an airport check-in counter, one has to put the bags into the machine for scanning, then go by the open gate to ensure there are no dangerous objects we are carrying, before going through another long stretch to the entrance of the Flyer.

By the time I stepped out of the capsule, I felt as if the whole thing hardly moved at all. It was a mere half hour round trip, but one can hardly feel the capsule moving. Before you know it, you were at the highest point, and before you know it, you were back down again. Overall, an enriching experience!

When I took the escalator back down, there was an exhibition going on, including a snazzy looking white Porsche Boxster! I could not resist taking a picture of it!



After drooling over the Porsche, I went to exchange my voucher for the mooncake and hence concluded my ride! I will want to go up again, at night this time, and preferably with someone special by my side! It was fun, but with someone special at night, it would be so much better!
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