Why Do I Still Hurt?

I was finally told off last night to stop doing so much by the one person whom I was doing so much for. So he is not that dense after all, in that case why could he not have told me earlier? He said he was not ready to be tied down yet. Then why go around saying he wants a girlfriend? It was not totally unexpected though, but still, why do I feel as if a part of me has been torn apart? I thought that since I have already resolved to give up I would be alright even if he told me straight, but why am I still hurting so much? I had another sleepless night because of this. Just when I thought I could be strong enough to handle, it turned out that I still crumble.

When I blasted everything out to my friend last night, he said he already told me to stop wasting my efforts, since whatever I have done any guy would be receptive enough, and if he was still not responding, then that means he was not interested. But I have never considered whatever I have done a waste, because I know how I felt for him, and whatever I did was to genuinely make him happy. This is probably the first time I actually did so much for someone without any sign of appreciation whatsoever and yet I still feel good about it. Perhaps I have finally learnt how to truly love a person wholeheartedly.